While my words often come with qualifiers (see), I never hesitate to name my top priorities as an individual: God and music. When I think about how that might be perceived by the skeptical, being a skeptic myself, I feel the need to justify this primary pursuit to better understand the nature of our being. But it stays firm because I feel I owe it to any creator to recognize the underlying cause and design.
The pedigree of my spirituality is based in confirmation and proof. Spiritual growth and self-realization may translate to stronger faith, and while faith can be strong there can still be rays of doubt creep in, allowing us to imagine the possibility there is no God or reason for life and everything is subject to chaos. Ideal self-realization means knowing beyond doubt not only is there a God, but in fact we are all expressions of that entity as it realizes existence. Of course, most of us are far from that level and still have to operate on some level of faith.
Total faith would mean certainty. I recall being very young and strongly desiring the reality of an in the flesh visit from God, anthropomorphized and come to tell me “yep, it’s all true so live accordingly!” An appealing idea for a child’s mind, not a realistic one. Not because any God would be incapable, but then there would not be a life of witnessing His/Her nuanced true nature, not to mention break your brain. There would be no continual reward in affirmation of faith. And while there are many varied faiths, I don’t personally know of anyone who can truly claim to have an experience that breaks the confines of our physical world, of which there is no possible explanation other than an undeniably higher power. I think we all still seek this to some extent, even as we churn in daily meditation building our foundation brick by brick. If events like this happen at all, it is only to those who are realized enough to not need the affirmation. Until we get there, we live on faith and and a purpose of continually whittling away areas of doubt until only knowing remains.